VON: 我是胆小鬼

好久好久好久都没有写网志了。。。原来最后一篇是还在日本的时候写的。。算算回来也已经两个月了。。好快呀。。。。。

回来以后一定会跟不少老朋友出去喝喝茶、吹吹水、了解一下彼此的近况，却让我发现身边很多朋友都或多或少有些变化，并不是说他们的人变了，只是毕业的毕业了，该工作的工作了，结婚的结婚了，没有男/女朋友的也谈恋爱了，结果好像只剩下我还在原地踏步。。

这样子原地踏步的我，跟朋友们喝茶的时候也发现当他们迈向人生的另一个阶段时，有好几次我是只有聆听的份，完全插不进话题，原因不为什么，只是我的路还没走到哪儿，还不能体会他们所说的，最后只能感谢那细心的朋友转移到我“听得懂”的话题去。。其实是不是我自己也有问题呢？总觉得经历了那么多，怎么还没学好社交呢？总觉得在这一方面的沟通能力还是跟以前一样烂！明明知道这是自己的一个大弱点，怎么试着改进却在最后发现还停留在原点？每一次在这个时候，我几乎都会怪在自己的性格，性格如此，要改并非易事，其实说到底不过是自己提不起勇气去做改变。不敢改变自己，害怕的是什么呢？介意别人的眼光吗？我不清楚。。所以到最后只能当个原地踏步的胆小鬼。。

大二的时候曾经做过两个很大胆的决定，在别人眼中或许是大胆，在现在的我来说，那只是一时的天真，所谓初生之犊不怕虎，也没想那么多，就跟着自己的感觉走，虽然这两个重大决定并不让我后悔，只是其中一个让我更看清自己的本事，如果现在让我重选，自私的我应该会做同样的选择，而无私的我应该会放弃，只不过，我是自私的，所以，只好辜负了对我抱有期望的大家。。对不起！我知道我该踏出改变的第一步，但我始终没有这么做，明明知道那是我的责任、我的分内事，却没有采取任何行动，或做任何改善。。真的对不起！

YUN: 梦。幸福

最近都在那儿深思着何谓《我要的幸福》、它是什么样子、怎样得到的？在在困扰着我，以至于连我《做梦》都会探讨《幸福》。。

梦里的幸福，很简单，只是些跟一班很重视的朋友在上着课、交作业的片段。

梦醒了，很有感触，就赶紧想把这感觉写下来：

看清自身本质 学会融会贯通
莫待岁月蹉跎 持续学习掌握
变成有机营养 就此降临幸福

幸福可以是很简单，却《如履薄冰》；

有付出就能有幸福，就《垂手可得》；

幸福-- 是《一瞬间》，也是《永远》。

YUN: 我的唯一

能做到谁谁谁《我的唯一》，很高兴，因为备受《肯定》；很难，因为《不是那么的容易》。

要做到爸妈的唯一，不外乎：金钱上无需有压力，面子上给他们过足《炫耀出色孩子》的瘾；

要做到兄弟姐妹的唯一，就是得：让他们信任你的能力，有什么困难，第一个想到的就是你；

要做到朋友的唯一，要保持着：时时关怀联络，时时当《忠实听众》，为友谊不惜两肋插刀；

要做到情人的唯一，不就是：体谅啊，信任呀，甚至于妥协、牺牲与奉献。。

很多身边的《人、事、物》都是我们所不能预料的、控制的，但这就是《藉口》吗？

变成xxx的唯一，不是简单的，却是我们所追寻的；只因为《被肯定》，是生存下去的能量。。

而人，是不能没有《生存的能量》。

VON: 一波未平，一波又起

国内顶尖、鼎鼎大名的马来亚大学，最近在我眼中已经不是Universiti Malaya了，而是UM=Universiti Masalah了。。。



1) 宿舍的住宿费：

明明就没有住校了，但宿舍还是毫不客气地跟我收费。。。写信去complain（不止一次），托朋友替我递去给宿舍。。。宿舍后来说什么信也没受到。。。又叫我再写信。。。是要我写几次？？每次的说辞都不同，一会儿要这个文件，一会儿要那个文件。。。到最后他们现在要的文件又不知道藏在哪儿了（10、11个月以前的东西），拿什么交给他们？？那也就算了，顶多我回到去慢慢跟他们耗当务之急是course registration...



2)course registration：

由于欠他们超过500马币，就不能登陆register course了，所以只好先把欠他们的还了（反正最后这两个学期的学费迟早也是要缴）。。。由于上两学期停学，所以又要打电话去SKR麻烦他们换掉我的status pelajar才能登记。。。到这里也还好。。。终于成功登陆了。。。下一个问题又出现。。。怎么我们只允许登记最多17个学分？？明明是最多21才对。。。又是系统问题。。。但至少登记了17个学分。。。包括了13个学分的必修课、2个学分的课外活动课和2个学分的选修 - 越南语课。。。好吧，暂时告一段落，反正还有add and drop week嘛。。



3) add and drop week：

这个时候系统已经恢复了最多21学分。。。好！！赶紧登记另外4学分，拿满21学分，下学期就只剩下14学分就可以毕业了！！这时候可恶的bendahari不知道为啥一开始就charge我们学费了。。。结果又搞成我又欠他超过500马币。。。结果，又被系统block了。。。刚开始还以为是之前那笔。。。结果又打电话去SKR又打去bendahari。。。噩梦来了。。。两边的人都在推卸责任。。。SKR还好，至少有人接电话。。。bendahari那边可是连续打了好几个小时（办公时间）都没人接。。。反正到最后就是花了我一番口舌，终于让他们unblock我了。。。耶！！可以继续登记科目了！！下一个问题来了。。。。选修课。。。我的选择不多，这个学期有开课的不是跟我的必修课撞上课时间就是撞考试时间。。。剩下没几科可以拿了。。而剩下的那几科。。。靠妖！！都很不幸的被填满了。。。再加上我会迟4个星期回去上课，有好几科的选修课又不能拿了。。。在所剩无几的情况下，我已经很委屈地（因为不是我要的科目）拿了6个学分不知道什么"falsafah dan pendidikan di Malaysia" 跟 "pendidikan jasmani, kesihatan dan ko-kurikulum"，而且还好了一番功夫才找到那个讲师的电邮地址，写了email给他告诉他我的情况。。可惜等了2天都没回应，眼看add and drop week要结束了，应该没问题了吧。。。总算松了一大口气。。虽然会担心21学分会不会有点太重。。



4) 6个学分的选修课：

add and drop week在7月19日结束了。。接下来就是等22日-26日的pengesahan...谁知道？？？20日，朋友通知我说我拿的那2科各3学分的选修课竟然只是公开给bahasa jerman dengan pendidikan的学生，所以我就被迫要drop掉那两科。。。哎。。。drop掉有多难？？一通电话、一封email就搞定了。。。但我就变得只拿了15个学分，同时意味着下个学期要拿20学分才够我毕业。。。哇靠！！20学分还包括了毕业报告。。。要命！！！唉，20就20呗。。顶多自己再努力点应该不成问题。。反正原本打算这学期那21，下学期拿14，照这样看来，只是顺序掉转而已嘛。。。话虽如此，但还是免不了不死心地想拿多一科选修课。。哪怕2学分也好，下个学期不至于那么辛苦吧。。。于是开始发电邮给讲师们，同时朋友也一直在帮我。。。虽然还是帮不了多少，但至少尽力了吧。。。发电邮给讲师不是一件乐观的事。。。我早上发的电邮要到晚上才收到回复。。。要命的是，那个讲师也不见得肯帮我，（硬要说帮的话，就是默许我拿她那科了吧 - 很多选修课的讲师都要求我们从第一堂课上起，而我则是前面4堂课都没办法上，所以很多讲师都不让我上他们的课），电邮里只说一句叫我自己联络office的人，因为登记的事不关讲师的事，而且deputy dean已经着手这一科的registration。。。靠！！我哪儿知道是要联络哪一个office啊？？联络dean office吗？还是直接联络deputy dean？？又或者是我department的office？？算了，直接找上dean office和deputy dean本人了。。只不过，已经等了超过12小时还是石沉大海。。。pengesahan kursus就只到这星期天，拜六、礼拜也没人做工，看来这个学期就真的只能拿15学分了。。。

忽然想起我这个学期拿的ko-k课。。。一直都联络不上那个讲师，也不知道到时回去了以后，万一他叫我drop掉的话，看来我不二度延毕也不行了（一想到这里就不禁后悔干嘛要来日本交换留学，不来的话，下个月就可以顺利毕业了~！）

说实在的，我真的不想那么悲观，可是我不得不做最坏的打算 - 延毕

祝福我吧。。。希望这一波又一波的停留在这学期只拿15个学分就好。。。接下来的。。。。会雨过天晴吧。。。

YUN: 为不认识自己的《明星》再掉泪了

第一次的是听了《周董》的《世界末日》后，歌的意境和当时心情低落的自己产生共鸣，一时感触，就.. 唉～ “...想哭来试探自己麻痹了没 全世界好像只有我疲惫 无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回 但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞...”-- 这个《第一次》，应该只有丽雯知道吧～

而第二次却“贡献”给《潘玮柏》。

很惭愧，不是听了他那动听的歌，不是看了他那精湛的舞，不是为了他那不服输持续的努力；是今天看了他个人官方论坛《威儿帮》在09年头吵得很热的一个贴。在那里，看到了自己欣赏的潘玮柏被追了好些年的柏迷质疑他对歌迷的态度不复以前刚是新人时期那般“...会跟柏迷一起聊演唱会、专辑、假期计划；会在过年找柏迷要红包的；会回家一起倒数跨年的；会在愚人节跟柏迷开玩笑的；会在生日时来威儿帮留言的...”

不是不懂那些一直以来支持玮柏的亲们对于自身种种的体验或“遭遇”（包括接玮柏机时，玮柏摆臭脸等事件）所要表示出来的低落情绪；

不是不懂那些害怕自个儿一直支持的玮柏变得不是当初所认识的柏迷他们的焦虑；

不是不懂那些在为玮柏和歌迷之间产生“小摩擦”而在那里着急的柏迷他们的担心；

就是懂他们的低落情绪，他们的焦虑，他们的担心，才会知道到底他们柏迷是拿出何等痛苦的心情去写出那些感言肺腑的“心声”。

看到一样欣赏玮柏的，一样喜欢玮柏的，一样支持玮柏的亲们，他们所写的每一个真性情的“回帖留言”; 眼泪就这样子默默地，不受控制地...

落泪，是因为被那些为玮柏付出的掏心掏肺而感动的；柏迷他们一起为不符实的报道而愤慨打抱不平，一起聊玮柏的新闻而振奋，一起为看到那蓝色带加号的（潘在线）而激动着，一起为玮柏从不会（唱歌、跳舞、创作）到会的努力精神而学习着...

或许在别人看来，这一切的一切是盲目、是痴狂。

只有柏迷心里懂-- 玮柏的音乐 玮柏的舞技 玮柏不服输持续的努力！

也只有柏迷知道-- 从《支持玮柏》里，学到些什么，得到些什么...

ps: 在未来日子里，会第三次为《明星》掉眼泪吗？（嗯，拭目以待...）

VON: 64th Tokyo Chorus Festival

i was kinda looking foward to performing in the 64th Tokyo Chorus Festival..being told that it's a very big hall with a very big stage.. but in fact, i think the DTC hall in UM is bigger and the stage is like the stage in KPS.. hmm.. not tat big as what i thought... not that many audience, too..


after 2 years in 9th coll's choir, this is the first time joining other choir and had really different experience... we sang 2 songs in Japanese, one with piano and the other acapella..our initial pianist was hospitalised a few days ago and wasn't able to participate in the performance..but we're glad that our teacher found another pro pianist to play the song for us...she's amazing!! we just had one rehearsal with her right before we went on stage...


although i had some stage experience, and there were more audience and the stages were bigger, or even they were competition, this was only a performance.. well, mayb because this is my first time on stage in japan (most prob my last time, too!!) so somehow i got nervous... but still, the performance was overall ok, i would say.. hehe


unlike in UM FESENI, we heard our supporters cheering for us before and after our show, it was silent all the way, only some clapping but i'm touched!! esp the moment we finished singing, proceeding to walking down the stage.. however, the excitement after performance wasn't that much (compared to my previous experience in M'sia - we yelled and scream like monkeys after performance outside DTC) but this time it was abit rushing after performance.... after our turn, then sat down n listen to the next 2 choir, then brought to the fitting room and given only 10 mins to change back to our own clothes.... then we were brought out of the building... then hanging around there SS(syok sendiri) n take pics....






oh ya.. and that time i found my friend was there.. glad that he came for the performance though he was late and only managed to see us walking down the stage... but Tak, thx for coming n supporting!!!

VON: Kuala Lumpur is a pool??

Kuala Lumpur, the capital of Malaysia, pronounced as "kuararunpu-ru" (クアラルンプール) in Japanese..

i went to the 'box' for my choir during lunch today... out of a sudden, my jap frens mentioned about "kuararunpu-ru"...at 1st i tot someone started the topic related to Malaysia because i was there.... but the thing is.... i couldn't relate anything to Malaysia.... and..... suddenly one of them ask "where is it?" erm... well, i said "in Malaysia".. then all the 3 of them who were there had a shock...

the reason why i couldn't get what they said is because they're talking about "pool" and the word "pool" in jap is "pu-ru".... so they tot that "kuararunpu-ru" is a pool named "kuararun-pool"....the other reason that mislead them is the word is written as one word in Japanese..until i show them in the dictionary, then oni they realised it's TWO words: Kuala + Lumpur

so to those Japanese who doesn't know that Kuala Lumpur is a place will misunderstand it as a pool....sigh... seems like i have to talk more about my country b4 i go back..... let them know that Kuala Lumpur is the capital of Malaysia, the place where i live, not a pool!!

VON: nightmare

i was looking foward to participating in The 64th TOKYO CHORUS FESTIVAL so much as it would be my first and last time to go on stage in Jpn for choir performance!! but... somehow i made a nightmare!! due to the misscommunication b4 performance, me n a few team members were left out... in the end i can only sit down and listen to them at the audience seats.... oh no!!! please...... don't let all these bull shit happen on that day please!!!! please have everything going on smoothly on that day........please.............................

VON: 东京生活之四季的天气

我喜欢这里的生活，但最近。。。。有样事情让我好怀念大马-->大马的天气！！
处在热带国的大马，一年四季都热得像夏天那样。。（嗯。。不是一年四季。。是一整年。。因为我们没有四季）
在日本的这一年，让我初次体验到一年四季是怎么回事。。。从去年九月的秋天、冬天、春天到现在的夏天。。。

还记得九、十月的东京。。那时的天气是我最喜欢的。。太阳很猛，但吹来的风却是凉凉的。。走在路上，很舒服。。这样的天气，要我天天走路去上课我都愿意！！就算已经买了电车的定期卷。。但还是选择用走的。。那时就禁不住在想，如果大马的天气常年好像这样那该有多好啊！！

到了10、11月，天气就不断的变冷。。还没入冬就让我不禁担心：秋天就这么冷了，那冬天怎么办？而这句话也成了我最常和Carven走去上课时说的话了。。

还是秋天的某一天。。（应该是11月的时候）由于我觉得很冷，就披了一件毛茸茸的外套去上课。。哈哈。。那时就觉得刚刚好。。可是。。。匡平看了就说：“这件会不会太热了点？这应该是冬天才穿的吧。。现在穿好像有点早。。。” 唉。。看吧。。在那时一直喊冷的也就我跟Carven两个。。英国、加拿大、法国来的朋友只是随便穿一件T衬衫，然后说这样的天气刚刚好。。。

到了冬天，很歹势的说，我妈的朋友很好心地借了冬装给我。。可是我走在路上一次都没拿来穿过。。原因无它。。东京是个服装、打扮等都很潮流的地方。。。而那几件冬装，说实在的。。我真的不敢穿出去。。。结果就在这里买了一些。。又花钱。。。心痛啊~~~

好不容易“冷”到了春天。。心想暖暖的春风吹来应该会很舒服。。但并不全然。。。。。这里的春天的温差很大。。。早上一早起来很冷。。。到了中午有点热。。到了晚上。。有时好像冬天那么冷。。。最痛苦的事情就是不知道该穿怎样的衣服出去。。穿薄一点又怕会冷。。穿厚一点又觉得热。。。

终于，到了我熟悉的夏天！！话虽如此，但这里的夏天跟我们的‘夏天’又有点不同。。6月是梅雨季节。。最讨厌了。。因为这梅雨是比毛毛雨还要毛的毛毛雨。。。搞得空气的湿气很重。。。变成了闷热。。。。忘了一个重点。。。就是在大马都有车为代步工具。。这里呢。。随便走两步就会流汗不止。。。甚至有时在家什么都不做也会流汗。。可能在大马常处于冷气室吧。。。所以我发誓这30度左右的天气绝对比大马的37、8度来的难受。。。至少我在大马的汗量没现在多。。等这梅雨一过，相信会更热了吧。。。。唉。。。

好想念秋天啊~~~！

VON: happy!!

super happy yesterday for 2 points..
ONE: met up with Kyohhei to discuss his trip to Malaysia during summer holiday
TWO: he said that my jap level had improved alot!!

yeah!! finally Kyohhei n Akki had decided to visit Malaysia during summer holiday (they'll viist during my Hari Raya sem break in september).. so far the plan sounds so perfect for us... n they were so excited that they can visit University of Malaya, esp when they heard me saying that they might can join my class for one of the day if my lecturer allow (i think she will and my classmates will be happy to meet with jap!!)

the next thing for me to plan is where to bring them to?? Putrajaya, Genting, KL Tower, KLCC, Petaling Street are in the list ady... ohya... not to forget Klang's Bak Kut Teh as i promised Kyohhei for a better Bak Kut Teh than what i'd cooked!! hahawhere else?? Penang or Malacca, if we have the time.. but i'm not familiar with both places at all!!

Akki was abit worried about the language(s) used in Malaysia as he could only speak Jap and a lil Eng..so he said that he's glad to have me there to translate / interprete for them...by then, Kyohhei said that my jap level really improved alot, compared to when i first came to Jpn... he was one of the few whom i know when i first came n he was one of my 'tuition teacher'.... missed the days when we used to stay together on thurs's 4th period as we have classes on 3rd n 5th period...that's the time when i learned alot of stuffs frm him.. but he left Meiji Uni n went to another uni during my 2nd sem here.. so it's really been a long while since we really chat.. n frm there he said that my jap really improved!! haha!! so happy!! i couldn't rmb how sucky was my jap back in 9 months ago but surprisingly, he could!! that time was stil "watashi wa..." n it was word by word yet difficult to make it into a full sentense..(should feel paiseh la.... jap major student somemore...) so for rest of my 30++ 40 days here, i shall work hardEST to improve my jap till the level i want!! easier said than done right?? as i'm writing in Eng / Mandrin but not Jap.. but i'm having more than enough ot write in Jap for my classes here.... essays, reports, translation frm Eng into Jap n the list goes on..... 頑張ります!!

VON: 东京生活之满人电车

在上一篇blog有提到搭电车之事。。这一篇就好好地写东京的电车。。
相信你们或多或少都听过日本的电车的恐怖之处。。其实并不是整个日本啦。。
真正恐怖的只是东京或首都圈的满人电车！！

所谓的满人电车，就是周一至周五7am - 9am的rush hour(还是peak hour??)时挤满人的电车。。
我每周二、四、五都有第一节的课。。所以，一周三次是避不了的，只是看那一班电车有多拥挤而已。。
说实在的，每当我走着去车站，看见那挤得不能再挤的电车，真的不想去上课咯。。再不然就是想搭反方向的电车。。因为反方向的总是空空荡荡的！

别的不说，先看照片吧。。。
这是某日晚上回家时在涉谷转车时拍的。。由于是终站，我总是会排好队，等下一班，然后“抢”位子坐。。所谓的抢，只是要确保自己是早早排队的，离开门最近的，可以是最早进入电车的就好。。基本上日本人都不会插队的，所以乖乖排队就ok的。。

是的，已经那么挤了。。但他们就是有办法再挤进去。。

在中间位置会比在门那里好一点点儿。。

别看已经挤成这样子了，他们绝对有本事还可以再挤的

其实我早上搭电车的情况没有以上的夸张，但有的时候跟这个也没差多少。。更夸张的是在这种非常时间的大车站会有特别多当班的人。。工作内容还包括在门要关的那一刻协助被夹（还没完全挤进去的人）的人，把他们推进去。。或者是被门夹着的包包。。

满人电车唯一的好处：当你真的被挤得前后左右毫无移动空间时，真的动不了的时候，不怕电车开走或停下来时所造成的摇晃。。就算没东西扶着也不会跌到的。。

每当有人问我日本/东京有没有什么是我不喜欢的，我的答案肯定是满人电车！！而听了这个答案的外国人大多都会说：“有同感”；日本人都说：“可以理解，问10个外国人有8个都会说这个的。。。” 甚至有些外地人（非东京出身）也不太能忍受。。可见啊。。。满人电车。。我在东京的噩梦。。

虽然说在吉隆坡开车，朝九晚五会比较塞车，但再怎么塞都会比在东京的电车里塞人当三明治来得好吧？

VON: 东京生活之一天只有24小时

残念ながら、一日はただ24時間しかない。很遗憾，一天就只有24小时。

很多人常常说：“一天24小时不够用。。” 可是遗憾的是，我们一天就只有24小时，谁也不比谁多一分或少一秒。。

在日本，时间真的过得非常快。。我指的不是1年过得很快。。而是一天的24小时。。过得比在大马时快得多了。。比如说，周六的时候，睡到10点多起来并不过分吧。。在家东摸摸西摸摸一下（家务再加张罗午餐），1点准时出门准备2点的合唱团练习（也要看是在哪一个校舍 - 最远的那间真的要花整个小时）。。2点的练习到6点结束。。再跟大伙儿去吃个晚餐再回家、冲完凉、整顿完毕，能够安静得坐下来大概就已经（早的话）10点多或11点多12点了。。就这样过了一天。。当我回想“这一天做过什么来呢”的时候，答案就只是 - 合唱团练习然后吃晚餐。。没了。。

再说，我家跟学校的距离可说是近的了。。没错，花半小时至整整一小时的路程不算是远的了（至少在东京生活的话）。。跟其他合唱团的团员比起来，他们一听到我住哪儿的时候，10个有9个会说“啊，那很近啊！！”相反的，当我问他们住哪儿的时候，有些答案会让我睁大眼、当场愣了一下、然后无法置信的说：“嘎？大概2小时？？” 请别误会那是来回2小时，而是去学校2小时，回家两小时。。这样的距离，他们说：“还好啦。。是有一点点远。。一般单程一小时半以内的不算远了。。”
让我吓傻的是住在日光(Nikko)的团友。。她可是每天搭新干线，来一趟学校花3小时。。天啊！！她所花的时间够我从KL回到居銮了啦！！我常在想，一天24小时：睡眠时间8小时、来学校3小时、回家3小时。。就已经花掉了14小时。。除去吃饭冲凉2小时、再除去上课的时间。。那他还有多少时间呢？？

说到交通，在东京待久了，每天以电车代步，真的让我非常想念驾车的感觉。。虽然在吉隆坡开车有时会让人作呕。。但总比在东京的电车里当三明治来得好吧。。有关电车的事，跟主体不贴切所以在这里就暂不说了。。

不知怎的，就是最近发现时间过得超快得。。。快也就算了。。而且还过得不充实。。什么也没做，又过了一天。。看这日子一天一天地过，同时也意味着离回家的日子也一天一天逼近，有太多的不舍让我不禁妄想这24小时能不能过得慢一点，或者一天有超过24小时那该多好。。。但遗憾的是：一天就只有24小时。。。。。。。。。所以，在倒数着回家的日子的同时，我应该更加充实的度过这40多天的24小时！！

p/s: 日光不在东京，而是位于栃木(Tochigi)县的一个城市，离东京大概140km

p/s 2: 现在的我不但日文没进步到理想的程度，就连中、英文也退步了不少。。在写这篇blog的时候，有些句子是日翻中的，有些中文的词汇也搞混了。。驾车？？开车？？甚至有些句子偏向带有台湾腔。。随便啦。。反正意思有带到就好。。

YUN: 当下非做不可的事。。

【要把非做不可的事想得容易一点，然后它就真的会变得很容易】

昨晚没能用电脑（没法，给二姐捷足先登了），就翻翻被冷冻在我书柜很久的些书籍。偶然之下，发现这有意思的句子，还真是“一语惊醒梦中人”。

当下非做不可的事：

1-- “提起心肝”，找工作。（不能再“来来函”了）

2-- 把 “车”驾出来。。

（熟悉我的朋友，都知道这事是多么地会要我命 *0*)

3-- 为家里的生意想想。。。

（之前都只是“讲就天下无敌，做就无能为力”， 是时候要付诸于行动了）

4-- 完成【~香港旅~行程】。。。。

（再不给翘玲她们和自己“交代”下，情况不堪设想*0*)

~加油吧，淑云~

GO GO GO ！

VON: 讨厌sayonara

时间过得真快。。再过1个月多，就是我回国的时候。。1个月听起来感觉上还很长，真的要算，其实在日本的日子大概只剩6-7星期。。虽然我很想在这里呆到8月才回去，可是现实却不允许我这样做。。即使我提早到7月20多回去，马大的课业进入第3周了。。只要一想到这一点，我真的很想早点回去，可是这次回去，下次什么时候会再回来日本，没有人知道。。或许下次来的时候是念大学院，或许是来旅行。。谁也说不准。。一这样想，就巴不得可以多留在这里。。。很矛盾的心情。。
在这里的朋友，说少不少，说多，却不多。。可是会让我依依不舍的朋友还是有的。。尤其是最近好不容易跟社团的人渐渐熟了起来，可是一聊起天，很多人都会问我留到什么时候。。唉。。毕竟才相处没多久。。。然后，伤感就涌上来了。。虽说天下无不散的筵席，可是这一次的“散”所带来的不舍，让我不好过。。我讨厌这样的难过。。有时候会不禁地想，早知道就不要参加社团了，不参加，就不会认识这群朋友，不认识他们，就不会有现在的难过。。话虽如此，可是我还是很庆幸能认识他们。。还记得刚参加的时候，由于那时候我是那圈子里唯一的外国人，很多人都一下子就把我的名字记起来了，甚至只见过一次但没谈过话的学长，那是真的很吃惊，然而我到现在却还在很努力的记他们的名字（记名字本来就不是我擅长的）。。我想，只要我还在那圈子里一天，我都不会忘记某人说过的一句话：“这里（社团）的人都很好，你应该可以交到很多朋友的。。（笑）”

只是现在的我，真的不想跟现在的人、事、物说sayonara~~~

嫌だ!!「さようなら」と言いたくない～!

VON: 今天的决定是明天的未来

虽然在很久以前就听过这句话了，可是不知怎么的，这一次却提醒了我我现在（其实是很久以前）该做的事并一次又一次的反复对自己说这句话。。

本来是在休息的时候看了《终极三国》，里头的对白是这样的：
“今天的决定是明天的未来，如果决定都没有改变，那未来怎么会改变呢？”

一听到这句话，突然让我明白，为什么很多时候自己设定了目标，却到最后都没达成。。原因再简单不过了。。虽然目标是设定了，明明知道要往哪个方向走下去，可是，实际行动是否有改变呢？若没有，那设定的目标不也就是白设了吗？嘴上说的改变，任何人都说得出，可是实际上又有多少人真正可以做得到呢？？

YUN：If no Monday then Tuesday wont appear...

A: "i dont like monday ): *crying*"
B: "Why don't like??? If no Monday then Tuesday wont appear... lol..."

这是从朋友FB那里的对话看到的，觉得很有意思，就引用在这里了。别无其他，就是喜欢他用积极的心情态度去看待事情。

既然我们没有能力去改变即将发生的事情或结局，那倒不如用轻松写意的心情态度去面对困局？好过在那里“蓝色忧郁“？

好个。。If no Monday then Tuesday wont appear。。。

YUN: 恨死 H1N1 !!!!!!!!!!!!

害我差点没能去夏之旅。

害我没能跟班上朋友去云顶和帮猩猩庆生。。

害我放form6朋友飞机，两天一夜的云顶旅就酱泡汤了。。。

害我损失rm80的房间钱。。。。

害我和form6的朋友，只能呆在谷中城聚餐，聊天，看电影。。。。。

所以我，恨死H1N1 ！！！！！！


（幸好朋友都能体谅我有个爱我，要我爱惜自己，爱惜生命的妈妈。爱你们~）

YUN: my "only one"..

会发起此篇部落，纯粹是应最新力作！ Caricatures of T4(续篇) 的要求，被罚写一篇专属给only one的。（重点是，我到现在还搞不懂，为什么是我被罚的？我又没做错事*0*）-- 哎呀，还是别在此争执了，大家开心就好(n_n)

ok, 原归正状。

就简单一句话来说，他是个满感性的人，对家庭，对朋友，对身边的人。

他算是感情节奏变化比较缓慢的人吧，因为有说到他自己是慢热型的。（那他大多数要花一段时间才会适应一份感情、一份工作、一个环境，但适应了之后，他应该甚少会做改变，除非迫不得己吧。）话说回来，是不知道他会不会甜言蜜语，懂不懂温情浪漫，但是总认为他是个情感一经触发将会一发不可收拾，无法自拔的人。（不要问我为什么这么认为，只能说凭直觉吧，而且直觉是很主观的……）再说，在感情世界里，他应该是个老实木讷、不善言谈的吧，尤其是面对他很在意的人。（哪像对我这个aiya only one这般那般酱。。*o*)

不仅对爱情如此，对他画画启蒙老师（吧生【曹画室】的曹老师夫妇）的恩情也极尽真诚。【在那里学画的十二年，我可以保证，他们绝对是吧生首屈一指！】——这句话虽不见得有多华丽，却是他对曹老师夫妇最质朴的感激，“一日为师、终生为师”的信念在他心中应该不是口头说说而已吧。

他是个家庭观念很强的人，家人是他生活的中心吧，是他欢乐和自豪的资本，也是学业发展的坚实后盾，这一点在多篇近期的部落——谁给谁惊喜？，想家，老豆老母的【光阴的故事】，慈母多败儿，知恩图报中表露无遗。

他非常顾家，别看他平时温温吞吞，老是笑呵呵的样子，一旦受到触怒，他也会变得令人。。。（请大家各自填充^^）只因家庭是他的重心也是软肋吧，是他情绪爆发的导火索，若不想看到最不牛牛脾气的一面，最好还是少“惹”为妙。（呵呵……）

他做事小心谨慎，现实感很强，并且内心应该容易缺乏安全感和信赖感吧，若身边没有一班既能承担课业责任，又能获取他的信任和他并肩作战，还能在他泄气时给予鼓励的组员和朋友，那么他会觉得遗憾吧，就算他是顺利地完成他三年的大学生涯。

他的人不会急躁冲动，只有忍耐，原因在于他是个以大局为重的人吧。常常用那些激励的话语提醒自己，反省自己。最令我影响深刻的是——【换个角度又是新的世界，换个方式又是新的生活】。我想，“吃得苦中苦，方为人上人”，是他一直要秉持的生活态度之一吧。

除了吃可以维持生命之外﹐他应该还需要和音乐﹑情谊﹑华服﹑美食﹑高贵的情操等等活在一起吧﹐想想看最近有沒有好听的音乐？有沒有參加高品味的文化活动？有没有忽略身边重要的人事物？尽管所选修的科目与美术领域没直接的关联，但曾经想学画画的夢能不能以业余兴趣的方式慢慢发展呢？等等。。

再说，他的人有艺术细胞，具有一定的艺术欣赏和能力。佩服他在课业上的美术创意，在私人部落格的种种用心，在自家书房展现壁画的风采，在设计班上朋友纪念册的任劳任怨，和画班上Caricatures的种种心思。。（在此，由衷地想对only one说，【谢谢，把我画得酱可爱，个人挺满意的】，呵呵~）

顾家、有责任感、知恩图报、坚持信念、努力进取……这都是可以用来形容他的词汇。能具备这些不错的个人魅力和内涵，再怎样加，再怎样减，他都可以勉强被列入为【好男人】一族！有兴趣者，可私下联络或PM他，嘻嘻(n_n)

YUN: T4的十八罗汉。。

班上的同学，越来越少，只剩下我们18位。而真正可交心的，又剩下几位？

“眼见看未为真”，看似没什么交流的，却可以轻易地有话题聊；反之表面看似很“好朋友”的，背后的感情却是那么的不堪一击。

最近，班上有位朋友曾说过“大家开心就好”，觉得这句话在我们人与人相处之道里必修的基本课程。

而且，最重要的是，“今朝有酒今朝醉”，要尽情“享有”当下的愉快心情，因不知往后还有这般纯真的快乐没有。。要永远记得，《欢喜就好》。。

T4的十八罗汉，大家共勉之~ （还有要保持联络~)

VON: birthday in Japan - Tokyo

it was a special day yesterday... hmm... really special??? if birthday is...
well, i would say it's a different birthday compared to the previous 22 birthdays..
1st, i'm having the day in somewhere far away frm home...
2nd, the celebration...
3rd, my birthday wish(es) which is something most important on the day, i think..

i dun think i have to talk more on the 1st point... most of u know where am i now...(refer to the title if u don't)

ok.. here comes the celebration.....
hmm... did i celebrated it once?? or twice??
ok la.. to make it sounds better, then twice lo....
once on the day itself, once one day before it..
let's go the the day before it 1st, which happened to be some normal hanging out session with the gang coincidentaly on the day b4 my bday..
5 of us (me, Carven, Wesley, Winnie and Annie) went for karaoke..
the whole session was 3pm-8pm.. but only Wesley and Annie were there for that 5 hours..
the rest of us had class(es) ... mine was 4.20pm- 5.50pm..
so... went for K frm 3pm-4pm.. then went for class.. then joined back the K session frm 6pm-8pm... (这样的赶场，也未免太好笑了吧？？)
sry.. no pics... forgot to take even a single picture T_T

had ramen for dinner after that.. it's a small shop.. and too bad we had to wait for seats...
discovered something interesting but forgot to take picture of it cz my ramen is served!! (hungry liao ma.. so makan dulu la..)
oh ya.. the shop is so small and that it's sometimes difficult to get seats together... 5 of us were had to seperate into a 2-3 group... ishhhhhh


now comes to the second celebration... it was a last minute decision and hence, again, in a small group of 5 but with my korean frens - Heejin, Jisuku, Moto and Chiru
we went to some Izakaya(居酒屋) nearby campus and had nomikai (飲み会 - literally drinking party)
i oni go for nomikai once in a blue moon but since it's my birthday, so it's the blue moon lo.. haha
what we had was unlimited drinks (on the all "u can drink" menu) and set of dinner.. it's not too much, but stil enough for a meal..

then.... later..... or i should say today, i realised something..... there was NO cake for the whole day = i didn't make any wish!!! OH NO!! birthday WITHOUT birthday wish?!?! -> sad thing T_T

VON: miss

a truth that i have to admit: time flies
everything's just gonna be too fast
one year(actually 11 months) in Japan.. now left oni less than 3 months
3 years of uni life in UM just passed like this
and if i didn't come to Japan for the exchange programme, I'm supposed to have completed my 1st degree and grad in a few months' time!!
i was looking at some pictures taken during form 6, 1st year n 2nd year of uni and i found that i really miss the good old days...
i miss my fellow friends in form 6, i miss so many of ppl who appeared in my first 2 years of uni life in UM...including my coursemates, choirmates, Tong Zhi gang and so on...
i actually didn't have much feeling when i see my seniors grad last time.. but this year.. most of my batch-mates in UM gonna grad so soon and everyone's gonna start a new chapter in life and then i realised that most of us are on different paths now...though we used to be purely students, having activities together, having the ups and downs together..................... i really hope that we don't have to be apart, but this is life, isn't it??
i'll be joining UM again, but i believe that my final year will be different frm my previous years... will it be better?? i don't know.... but i'm sure i'll miss those who left... i'll really miss those days...

guys, i miss u all so much!!!

VON: it shakes again

A:it was shaking!!
B: what?
A: earthquake...
B:where??
A: my room...
B: u serious??
A: well, abit oni la... cant see anything shaking... oni can feel it..
B: always liddat ar??
A: not too often la... a few times lo...
B: scared onot??
A: wont scared wan la...
B: ya ar?? but sounds scary lo...
A: oni the first time felt scared la..
B: first time?? den how??
A: tat time i ngam ngam woke up... den felt tat the bed's shaking abit.. but u noe la.. just woke up.. abit blur blur oso... den took some time to confirm the feeling of earthquake..
B: har?? need to confirm lagi ar??
A: yala.. cz tat time actually wondering is because i just woke up or wat ma....
B: den??
A: den ar.... i was thinking wat shd i do if it continues shaking lo... no experience ma... mana tau wat to do wo??
B: aiyo... if really big earthquake den how??
A: hmm... according to the earthquake guidance given by uni.... hide under the table lo... need to protect the head not to be knocked lo...
B: so at least they teach u wat to do oso la...
A: no ar... they din really teach or wat... it's oni written on a small small piece of paper...
B: oh... den after the first time... second time n so on not scared ady ar??
A: cz the first time wasn't serious... so the second time n later on not scared lo...
B: icic


wondering if u find it interesting to read the incident in this way.. but all of a sudden, i just had the idea to share it in such way.. btw, it was really shaking (abit oni la) around 7pm (japan's time) just now...

VON: Brain stucked!!

after joining some clubs n society stuff in the uni, we had dinner together.... i'm the oni Gaijin(foreigner) in the club...good!! good!! can practise jap again!!!!

but i wonder what happen to my brain at that time.... at 1st, i stil can talk to them with my not so fluent jap... but... after a little while..... my brain stucked!!!! i couldn't express wat i wanna say in jap...i tried very hard to converse in jap, sharing about 'mamak stall' with them... but i cant even rmb how to say "youngsters often/like to go to mamak stall." cham liao la T_T such a simple sentense "若者はよく行く" (wakamono wa yoku iku.) in the end i used english... sigh.....another poor thing: eng oso tak boleh pakai

i was switching to eng but at that time all the vocab appeared are in jap... wat situation is tat!?!?
jap vocab with eng grammar... sigh.... n even so, it's not the proper eng grammar but the broken ones.... argh!!!!

but luckily these new jap frens are nice n were patient to wait for my broken languages....

YUN: yummy..

good outing with sis @ Leo's cafe, AU2^^

Top Ten Award 十大青年

(Kiwi flavor mixed Fruits and Crystal Lychee)

Ordinary Iced Lemon Tea

Encholato
(Steaming hot Lep's enriched coffee, shower over a chilling cold Italian mint gelato)

Soup of the day

Blackcurrent Crispy Chicken Wings 黑加仑脆皮鸡翅膀

(Deep fried oriental crispy chicken wings with blackcurrent & seasame seed)

Chiken Char Siew

(Bucket rice with chicken char siew, "tung choy" & egg julienne)

Ordinary Fried Chicken steak

Buttermilk Seafood Yee Mee 奶油海鲜伊面

(HK style Yee mee, prawns, crap meat and classic "pak choy", topped with buttermilk sauce in a hot pan)


~Yummy~

VON: 1st week of the sem... ADD OIL!!!

finally, my 2 months ++ holiday ended.....new sem started on 10th April... isn't it weird to start uni on a friday??? but well, my friday's class start only one week later than that... haha... so a few more days for my holiday... but that doesn't make any big difference though.... life is stil the same as before....

my very first class of the sem is the intensive japanese language class held at Surugadai campus (which takes me around 40 mins to reach there) on tuesday.... since it's the first class and there're some new comers, we're asked to do self intro....next, in the evening.... korean class... well, i was hesitating to take that class onot... as i'm supposed to polish my jap in japan n not to learn a new language here...but after some consideration, i'd finally decided to take the language... ADD OIL!!!

wed, took 2 jap classes: japanese expression (writing) and japanese expression (speaking)... both classes are taught by a famous lecturer in japan... hmm... she's strict to exchange students.. dun give face wan... and these classes are taken together with japanese students... actually abit pressure la... dun think my level is that good to understand the class yet... but well, i'll take it as a challange... ADD OIL!!!

thursday....a tiring day.... had intensive jap class again with a different lecturer, therefore, need to do self intro again, to the same classmates but different lecturer..... 9.10am - 12.00nn with a 15 mins break at the interval, need to rush to Izumi campus for the following classes (takes at least 35 mins on train to commute between the 2 campuses)... no lunch for the day.... the next class start at 1pm.....the lecture for "language n culture" was so crowded... there wasn't enuf seats.... some of the ppl attended the class by standing at whereever they can....(this reminds me of Perijaya Tuition Centre... during the intensive seminar...... we'd experienced sitting at the corridoor for the history(if i'm not mistaken) class...) next, a seminar class about translation... it was written on the 'pro-forma' that only 12 students will be accepted for the seminar... but in the end, there're 18 students who registered for it... and we have a nice lecturer who accepted all of us... TQ Ms Otsuka!!! again, we're asked to do self intro!!! hmm.. really sick of it....but stil, i cant rmb the other seminar-mate's name.. none of them... anyway, during the seminar, we're asked to translate 2 eng sentences into jap... and that shows how bad my jap is.... my answer was so much different.. or i can say it's totally different from the japanese students' answer.... sigh... because, with my current level, i can oni do direct translation, but not translating it with the jap language culture into it....well, ADD OIL!!!

fri, had intensive jap class again, with another different lecturer... cant rmb if we're asked to do self intro onot....i was just too tired to recall it... weird.... i was just so tired for the whole day though i'm pretty sure that i had enuf sleep....so after class, went for lunch with my classmates who came frm korea n france at the cafeteria at 17th floor of Liberty Tower, Meiji Uni, then go back home, sleep.... in the evening, went back to campus again for a welcome party for "Campus Mate".... it's nice to get to know more ppl there... but it's super expensive.... 1000yen (around RM37) but ate oni some fried rice n a cup of juice..... but well, can noe more ppl, can prac jap more, worth la...better than going to izakaya (jap style restaurant) where need to pay for around 3000yen for 2 hours where u can drink wateva u want on the menu... n it's mostly alcoholic drink.....met with some 1st year jap students who wanna learn eng or chinese... alot of them were so surprise that i can speak chinese, eng, malay, cantonese, hakka n jap....haha... long time din speak so much jap in a single day (actually it was oni 2 hours)... my jap's not fluent yet, but improved quite alot compared to 7 months ago... so, ADD OIL!!!

after the first week, i can foresee that the workload for the classes are quite heavy... no pain, no gain.. i'll have to put alot of effort to polish up my jap in the remaining 3 months ++ here... ADD OIL!! ADD OIL!! ADD OIL!!!


p/s: add oil means 加油 in chinese or 頑張る in japanese (for those who don't understand)

VON: 反省

到底要维系一段情谊，要的是啥？？

我很想说：钱，也是需要的。。。

跟友人一起出去，不是要花钱吗？？就算不吃不喝，交通费总需要吧。。。

然后呢？？嗯。。。要投机吧。。。话不投机半句多嘛。。。
唉，现在是怎样？？为啥我跟同年龄的人在一起，能聊的话，真得很少。。。
来了日本也已经7个月有多。。在学校，聊的总是一些跟大马有关的话题啦，不然就是在日本怎样怎样。。。可是如果要像日本人之间那样聊，真的很难。。语言的差异、文化的差异等。。。
来了日本那么久，日文还不是说得很流利。。。说真的，很惭愧。。。

语言不通，那就算了。。那跟语言通的人呢？？应该能沟通得很好了吧。。。
可是看看我跟身边的人，有吗？？
沟通不好的时候，我会忍不住想，是我的问题吗？？
可是沟通是双方的。。那么对方就完全没问题了吗？？
我想了很多，想了很久，也分析过发生过的事情。。。
我很想说：问题在于我。。。

当中有些事情，我真的不想去想，可是我无法忽略掉。。只是说，现在一切都风平浪静，我不想把事情拿出来讲，真的不想破坏现有的平衡点。。。所以，我选择了无视。。只是，我真的可以说我无所谓吗？？很矛盾。。真的很矛盾。。

有的时候会觉得，我在那个圈子里是多余的，有我与否，好像也没什么分别。。这么说起来，自己都会觉得可悲。。这现象是什么时候开始的呢？？我不知道。。真得是那样子的吗？？我不知道。。我只知道，我的感觉是这样。。。不是一次，而是有好几次相似的事情发生了，让我不能不这样想。。。某次某人向我道歉了，虽然那句“sorry”怎么听都没诚意，可是还是让原本有点介意的我再次选择忘掉。。不开心的事还是忘了比较好，不是吗？？只不过，那某人为什么要道歉呢？？因为她真的觉得她做的事情伤害了我吗？？而其他在场的人也觉得那句sorry来的莫名其妙，我都一笑置之，真的不想说出来，说了，只会令场面变得尴尬。。还是不说了。。

这件事情，我真的很想很想忘掉，真的不想再想，可是类似的事情发生以后，而且是若无其事的样子，我真的希望是我想太多，多么希望是我自己太敏感，希望不是我一厢情愿的在维系着这段情谊。。。

如果有一天，这个平衡点被破坏了，大家有可能会撕破脸。。。万一那天真的来了，我还是想对圈内的人说，谢谢你们。。。。之前在一起的回忆并不是造假的。。。而快乐的事我还是会放在心底。。。

YUN: 失去的不能重来，只能把握现在，张望未来 。。

今天跟朋友拿“手指”去transfer photo。开了一看，哇塞，一大堆的相片。从大学一年级AMY的生日庆生到至今最新的KTV聚会+庆生派对，林林总总。但自己有份参与的，又有几个？

一路以来，不是不知道自己在班上的融合度是缺乏的，但不像今天这般的，对着一张又一张过去自己缺席的照片，那么血淋淋地被解剖开来。。连自己都不认识这般“灰色”的淑云。

唉。。

不，不，不。。不能酱子，要知道：失去的不能重来，只能把握现在，张望未来。。

淑云，加油吧~

YUN: 真没想到。。

很久没在戏院里掉眼泪了，最前一次应是两年前吧，看《The Car》..

今天看《Confessions of a Shopaholic》竟然会看到掉眼泪。这不是部浪漫喜剧吗？

真没想到。。

自己是个眼浅的人。。

YUN: ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU, smuaks~

想不到在大学生涯里，能认识到..

Animal team: Yoong (dugong)，Richard (flower horn king kong)，Tracy (penguin), and Ian (silent dog)

Gals’ club: Yook (whereby I under her control, pity..), Fang (responsible class rep), Yan Qiu (our SUAR—“sand”), and Karine (our AH LONG)

Genius group (as what Paul claimed themselves is，true anot, questionable^^): 从容不迫的Katie, 打游戏机打不sien 的Boon Yong, 打不死精神的William, and my aiya only one-- Paul

Our class couple: Helen & Jim; 喜欢看mm 的Shawn, 和我同样都是山羊座的Eric; and our Jenny^^

ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU and LOVE U GUYS, smuaks~

VON: recruitment week

finally, my holiday's coming to the end............uni gonna start again...yes.. finally..... can't recall wat i've done during this 2 months' holiday....



for the past few days... i was involved in recruitment for campus mate (something like a society which both international students n japanese students meet n befriend n stuff....) being kepoh and nth to do at home... i went there but not really 'recruiting' but sit there only while Ichi and the rest doing the explaining to the 1st year... my role is just to let the japanese students to have the 'feeling' of speaking english and/or chinese with a foreigner....haha... kinda easy job..




but.... when i met with a 1st year...... when he knew my age... he said that i'm an adult to him.... sigh.... i'm just 23 ok... adult???? hmm.... cz he's stil 19 ma..... so not an adult yet lo..... sigh...... made me felt i'm so old..... sad la....

YUN: all of us muz happie everyday o..

Have a great dine out with Utar classmates at Gobi (nearby Cheras)..

all of us had finally done our viva presentation in dis week.. and is katie's bufdae, so celebrate both happiness^^

(though v had "informally" ate katie's bufdae cake in uni campus in few weeks ago^^)

~all of us muz happie everyday o~

YUN: thanks to my other 3 team members-- shawn, eric & chun..

Huraih.. dats end the viva presentation today..

Quite satisfied on wat v had done for the viva.. do slides, edit slides, predict wat questions/ areas that might be asked, stay back day by day to pratice de slides (though juz 3days, juz more than enuf for our these type of last minute kaki^^).. woa.. v had done our best to have a satisfied viva presentation..

Thanks to my other 3 team members-- shawn, eric & chun.. well done!

VON: 花見(Hanami)

日语中的花见，字面上的意思就是看花。。看什么花呢？当然是樱花啦!!!

3月末，4月初就是樱花盛开的季节。花见这个活动又是怎么回事呢？

直到上个星期以前，我一直以为花见就是跟朋友们到樱花盛开的地方去赏花而已，就好像去看风景一样。其实是不只这样的。。。除了赏花，还有野餐呢!!而且，除了白天，现在还有夜樱呢!!

上个星期，我跟朋友都体验过花见了。。一个星期就去了3次，而每次的体验都不一样。。



花见1之 3月26日白天（吉祥寺 - 井の頭公園）:


据周游说，很多部日剧都有到这个公园里取景。一到公园的时候，看见的不是满开的樱花，有一点点失望。公园里有一个很大的湖，我们好不容易才在对岸看见一棵看起来像满开的樱花树。。一路上，看见的都不是一大群的人，而是以小群一小群，有些是妈妈们带着孩子们，有些是三五成群的乐龄人士，就是很少看到情侣的（后来听说这个公园很少情侣去的，因为传说很多情侣去过这个公园以后都是分手下场。。。）



花见2之3月27日晚上（半蔵門）:


出门的时候看过天气预报：预报说可能会下雨，结果，真的下雨了。。。虽然只是毛毛雨。。但是。。。。。。由于下雨的关系，照在樱花树的灯都没开灯。。。。。我们就绕着皇居，有伞的撑伞，没伞的就以野餐的那块席来遮雨咯（看图）。。途中也看到很多人冒着雨在慢跑中。。。奇怪，风吹得那么强，他们还可以穿着短袖T衫和短裤慢跑。。不冷吗？？我都已经冷到又是围巾又是手套的。。。

虽然下着雨，还是有不少日本人依然风雨不改的赏花。。而且，还有一群日本人还带着爱犬一起去呢。。映淳等人还拿着相机拼命在偷拍那几只小狗，结果不止没偷拍成功，还被那狗吠了呢！！哈哈。。到最后，其中一位日本人还拿了一瓶日本酒请我们喝呢。。。




花见3之3月29日白天（王子 - 飛鳥山公園）:

托吴姐的福，终于这一次是真的好像日本人那样去赏花了。吴姐organise了这一次的花见，在王子的飞鸟山公园。我们一群外国人（中国、台湾为多）和日本人一起在公园里大野餐！！其实当天不止我们一大群（35、6人）还有很多很多群的人都在那里赏花。。大家一边吃一边聊天、交流，一边赏花。。感觉挺好的。。因为气氛真的很好。。虽然美中不足的就是当天樱花才刚开花，所以还没有谢。。当然看不到樱花雨了。。。据说风吹来的时候，樱花的花瓣被吹得一直飘落下来，那时候的樱花雨是最漂亮的！！话说回来，当天可以说整个公园都是在野餐赏花的人群呐。。人潮多的是，就连政治人物也到那里去亲民亲民一下（图下）

公园里的空地都坐满了人。。

VON: 散在各地的家人

是福不是祸，是祸挡不过。。最担心的事情究竟发生了。。。

这么多年来，都是一家四口一起生活着。。除了我念中学以前，父亲因工作的关系，一礼拜在工作，一礼拜在家休息。。母亲则是这20多年以来都和孩子们（我和弟弟）在一起。。就在去年六月，我如愿地参加了一项exchange program，在日本的大阪度过了6星期。。母亲身边突然少了一个孩子。。大概2-3星期后，连弟弟也因为升学的关系到了东马的沙捞越大学去。。两个孩子都不在身边，也还好，至少丈夫还在身边嘛。。。又过了3-4个星期，我回家了。。。可是也没回去多久。。那次从日本回到大马，大概只呆了6-7个星期吧。。而且很多时候也没在家好好陪母亲。。都一直往外跑。。其实我知道母亲一直希望我能多留在家里，可是我却很任性地有事没事都到大学去跑一趟。。尤其是晚上，因为有宿舍的合唱团，常常都把这个当借口，很晚才回家。。也不是很记得那几个礼拜母亲是否还像以前一样坚持要等到我回家。。当然，母亲有明示过要我不要再继续参加合唱团了。。但我就是喜欢。。明明知道这样做母亲会有一点点不开心。。我并没有忽略父母对我的期望，只是。。我选择无视。。。。我选择了忠于自己。。。好啦，就这样。。。直到去年的9月，我再度到日本，这一去，是一年之久。。。两个孩子又不在身边。。母亲应该会寂寞吧。。。可是。。至少我父亲还在。。。

现在呢？？我人仍在日本，弟弟仍在古晋。。父亲呢？？因为工作的关系，去了菲律宾。。。这一去，也不知道要去多久。。。母亲。。。究竟一个人了。。。对母亲来说，3个最亲的家人，在这几个月当中，一个一个离家而去。。。统统都在overseas了。。。虽然这样的离别是短暂的，可是母亲该怎么适应呢？

担心母亲无法适应，我常常都会跟她电联。。父亲刚离家的那几天，母亲似乎都过得还不错。。。很会找节目。。日子过得挺充实的。。。只是，这几天呢？不妙。。母亲病了。。虽然不是什么大病，可是一个人在家没人照顾，很煎熬吧？？知道她生病了，更是要跟她联络。。只是母亲的态度冷淡。。当然嘛。。人不舒服，语气也不会好到哪儿去。。将心比心，我可以理解母亲又多渴望家人的关心。。可是当母亲用极度冷淡的态度与我说话的时候。。我突然不知道要跟她说什么好。。听得出她心情不好。。我却连一句哄她的话也不会说。。。

一直都在替母亲担心的我，却从来不敢问她：“妈，这几天过得好吗？”这样简单的一句话，我说不出来。尤其是电脑的另一端传出冷淡的语气，我真得无言以对。。因为，我怕我说错什么话，让母亲原本就不好的心情变得更糟。。。跟家人相处是这样的吗？？一家人，不是应该更坦然吗？

VON: congratz to 9th coll choir (UM FESENI 2009)

congratz to 9th coll choir in getting 1st placing again in UM Arts Festival (feseni).... well done everyone!!! proud of u ^_^

25 March 2009 - UM feseni choir category. i wonder y, but i was really nervous for the team. it's weird that i wasn't this nervous during feseni 2007 and 2008, but when it comes to feseni 2009, while i'm so far away, not one of the participant to sing on stage, i got nervous for nothing. mayb what Shiao Tan said is right: i wasn't there with the team throughout the whole journey, i'm not sure with what's going on there and hence i'll get nervous.

before the competition: one night b4 it, we had arranged a video conference/ voice call for me to talk abit n show support for the team but due to the network error, it didn't work. so i estimated the time to call them again b4 they depart to DTC... "all the best" was the ONLY message i can pass to the team.. my brain went blank all of a sudden when ES pick up my call.

during the competition: through ES's handphone, i got to listen to the 'live broadcast' of the team singing during the competition. the quality wasn't good, i could only get the melody line, but not the nice chords. i couldn't comment anything about their performance, but i believe that they'd put their best performance. the gan cheong-ness went off bit by bit during that 8 minutes. weird... my hands were shiverring at the beginning.. was it because i was nervous?? or was it the weather?? it's cold here......

2 hours later......... received a sms frm ES: 1st placing
oh dear!! 1st again??!!! yes!!! they did it!! i was so excited jumping up and down in my room as if i'm one of them on stage. i would say that my excitement level was like the past 2 years. the result wasn't unbelievable..9th coll team did it for the past 4 consequent years, it's not easy to get the 1st again, but it's not impossible. i was confident with them actually.. (y am i nervous then?? -> i don't know)

i called them again, listening to them shouting happily, excitingly, sharing their sweet moment with me. it's one of my regret that i couldn't be there this year... some of the members asked me if i'll be there for next year's competition.. i answered without hesitate: YES! even though i wont be staying in coll during my final year, but i'll be in the team (unless they fire me la)..but this made me calm down after a few minutes.. the next thing appeared in my mind was: oh.. the pressure from the past archivement: ppl will look at the 6th year... will it be 6 in a row?? i know that placing is something extra and it's not the most important thing, but.............. easier said than done right?? well, that's something far away from now.. i still have one whole semester in Tokyo ok?? anyway, i'm looking foward to join the team again in july/ aug....... guys, I'LL BE BACK!!!

YUN: all you need is 1 AA battery!

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All you need is one AA battery~

YUN: thanks you, Mr Lee..

Having a suitable thesis supervisor is better than having a good one.

Like my case, our supervisor is suitable for 4 of us, in the sense that he is the types of ppl dat willing to take initiative to guide us, monitor us, and we are the types of ppl dat wont be stepped foward unless have some1 push us from the back..

I still rmb a feedback that get from a Ms. HML (our passionate lecturer) which stated that, "You guys are lucky, being assigned to become supervisee of Mr. LTC."

Ya, i now quite agree with that given statement by Ms. HML. Our supervisor really make me appreciate the way he treates us throughout the guidance on the thesis foe the past few months, espcially on the submission day of the thesis. That was an incident that we thought we left out a signature of the supervisor, and it was a serious matter that we might not qualified to submit the thesis without the completed signature of the supervisor. Unlike others thesis group, their superviors are physically present at sg long campus, and for ours, is at kampar campus, so far away.. So how could we get the signature from him in such a short period of time (left abt 3-4 hrs dat the submission time of thesis closed)?

Guess wat happen at the end? We called up our supervisor n ask for help. He's so patient listening to us and calm down our nervous feeling, while giving out the instruction on how to handle this unexpected incident (and now im thinking back, will it be different if we deal with another supervisor? I cant imagine.)

Not only that, until today, i still very appreciate and feel thankful to have such "suitable" supervisor to guide us all the way, even for the coming thesis presentation-- viva. Only today i find out that other thesis groups' supervisors din request them to send or hand in a viva ppt draft for improvement purpose, but our supervisor did take initiative to request a copy from us dis week. Worse and to worse, there's a thesis group which is the hardworking type, asking their supervisor to check the particular viva slides. U noe wat's the feedback?

-- dunid. (speechless..)

Thanks you, Mr Lee-- our lovely supervisor who "suit" us well..

YUN: thanks to facebook^^

Singapore.. Been there once, with family n relatives. The impression is-- clean environemnt, have fun at sentosa island, food not nice, etc

Been there for few days only, sure cant have depth comment on it. unlike those friends studying or working there, they muz have plenty of experiences that can be shared with^^

Curious to noe y suddenly writing abt singapore (though is in short paragraph)? Hee, juz bcoz a frenz who had been long time din contact since primary sch studying, had just contacted back thru facebook, and he's now studying in singapore, still have a year to graduate..

thanks to facebook..

VON: Internet TV (网络电视)

just wanna share a software: 九品网络电视

thx to the IT developement nowadays, we're able to watch TV not only on the TV but on our PC, as long as u're connected to the internet. i just found out that there're some softwares which serve the function of TV, yet more than an ordinary TV. there's no more need to d/l movies, the above-mentioned software could get u live broadcast (like a TV) and also recorded TV programs (like what we d/l). u might think: so wat?? i have a TV at home and y do i need to watch the programs on the small laptop screen?? haha.. another reason for me to share about Internet TV is: u can watch overseas TV channel live regardless where u are, as long as u're connected to the internet!! interesting??

look for more info at the following website:
http://www.9ptv.com/

YUN: a man with shoulders..

Reli think that guys nowadays afraid to take responsibility on the matters that have been done by them. Of coz, cannot deny that not all guys are like that, but the guys besides me make me have this perception.

Takin excuse.. dun wan to admit.. pass the responsibility on others.. afraid to take charge or voice out coz scared to be the one to blame on once the ideas cant be worked out...

Reli cant stand for these kind of guys surrouding me. This make me think of the title track 'Real Man 大丈夫' in Jolin's new album, part of the lyrics contain this verse: 'I don't need a boyfriend, I just need a man with shoulders 我不要找男朋友，只要有肩膀的男人'..

A man with shoulders.. wat a good phase!

VON: Karaoke and dinner at Shinjuku

When I was half way cooking my brunch (breakfast + lunch) around 11 something, my friend mailed me: "is it ok to gather at 1.10pm today?" receiving such mail in all of the sudden, i didn't know that we're going anywhere today.. I can only remember that there's a trip to Tokyo Disney Sea which i didn't want to go yet... but isn't it on the 16th?? today's 17th... well, after clarifying, it's a hangout for karaoke with some other friends.. and it cost only around 500yen (around RM19 @ 100yen = RM3.8) for 5-6 hours. how cheap is it in Tokyo!!!! my previous karaoke experience was 1000yen per hour in the night and 1000yen from 3pm-8pm on weekdays. Of course, i joined them.. i hadn't been to karaoke for quite some time...

There were supposed to be 5 of us from the same mansion (Skycourt Shimotakaido) but only 3 of us (me, Winnie n 咏臻) turn up at the mentioned time. The other 2 (Carven and Annie) over slept. Yes, we don't wake up so early during holiday. So the 3 of us went all the way to Shinjuku (新宿) to meet the rest of the gang. We went to a convinient store to get some drinks before heading to the karaoke. reason? the drink in karaoke will usually cost around 400-500yen each.. At the counter (oh, Annie had arrived, so 9 of us there), we were told that the rate was 120yen each per hour but we need to add another 100yen each per hour to get a big room, unless we break into 2 rooms. We decided to pay extra to get a big room. We didn't want to be apart. We came in a group! And the minimum is 3 hours. well, 220yen x3 = 660yen (around RM25)

In the karaoke room, i found an interesting menu:

Yes, a menu for anti pollen allergy. There are fish (880yen), salad(780yen), tea (450yen) and a yogurt drink (480yen). Below, u can find some more picture with the explaination (in japanese) on what is good for anti-pollen allergy.

DHA and EPA will ease up the symptom of pollen allergy.

vegetables containing food fibre will normalized the immunity system.

sweet tea or vitamin C can stop running nose.

yogurt / vitamin C prevent pollen allergy

Pollen allergy seems serious in Japan (or at least in Tokyo). Even the weather forecast that i receive from my handphone include the report for pollen. But i never expect to see such menu in karaoke...


Later, we went for dinner in concurrent celebrating a friend's birthday at an Izakaya (居酒屋) named 千年の宴.

We took an 8 item's course which cost 2100yen each plus 950yen (ladies), 1250yen (men) for 飲み放題, which means all you can drink (mostly alcoholic drink) or 480yen for softdrinks only. 3 of us (me, Carven and Adam) chose softdrinks only while the rest of them chose the full menu. All of us were shocked when Carven chose softdrinks only. She used to drink alot since she came to Japan.. and most of the time when we have steamboat / dinner gathering at someone's room, she'll always be the one who demanded for alcoholic drink. But somewhere in the middle, Annie treated her a glass of cocktail, later, Sun Jack gave her a glass of "umeshu rock" (梅酒) and on and on, she drank a few glasses of alcoholic drink i think. What happen after that??? she's drunk!! but she denied. Anyway she's not drunk terribly...

When Carven's getting drunk, what's on my mind was: should I stop her or should I let her be?? because deep inside my heart I remembered what Kah Choon (one of my favourite senior in UM) told me: take care of her. But well, she's already an adult, it's her right to drink as long as she's not taking drugs, and I'm nobody to control her, neither her parents nor her bf. But, it's an unexplainable complicated feeling seeing her letting herself getting drunk.

VON: Fantasy Dreamer

What's all about Fantasy Dreamer??? it's actually the English version of group name for both of us - 梦幻双人组 when we're back to the old days during lower secondary school.
Time flies... this was about 8 or 9 years ago.. and what make us to have a such name?? i couldn't remember who was the one who started it of, but this really mean alot to me. it's a proof of our friendship since then.

We were schoolmates since primary school ,classmates for primary 3 n 6. We just knew each other as classmates but seldom talk to each other as both of us had our own circle of friends. However, when we came to secondary school, it happened that we're in the same class again and thanks to the form teacher, whom i'd forgotten her name (only remembered that she was our art teacher) she arranged the position that we should sit and from then on Yun sat in front of me and that's the time we started to befriend.

One of the game that we used to play was spinning a pen n answer some questions if the pen pointed at u. From then on, we get to know each other better and finally became best friend till now. Even though we're apart since form 4, it doesn't matter that we're in different environment, having different circles of friends, studying in different uni, studying different courses, our friendship stil remains and it will go on and on and on...